If you are going on a pilgrimage, because you want to go to heaven when you die and don’t want to help others live, then please don’t go. If you chant because you don’t want to work, then plz don’t chant. If you are practicing to generate compassion and don’t want to help others grow, then please don’t practice. If you want to pray but don’t want to help a broken-winged-bird to fly, then please don’t pray.
I feel you are doing it all wrong. If it’s of no help to yourself or the soul next to you now or later, then it’s all naive and total waste of time.
May be it’s time you review the course of your action or prayer.
Keep smiling and be positive, that’s the simplest and the best form of prayer if you are confused. Later when you have time, please explore about it more with positive conscience. It is supposed to go hand in hand together like earth and the sky.